2/18/09

another day, another dollar....so they say......well, at least it's not another pound on....haha

i have to kick myself in the butt & remember that giving up is not an option....

eventually the "click" is going to stick.....

i have a friend (I’ll call carol) who started out at about 380lbs in april 09....she has had gastric band surgery (in july 09) and has lost 82lbs since april

carol decided about 10 years ago that the "only way for her to lose weight would be with 'her operation'"

by the way, carol has ‘grown’ over the years….over the past 25 years….her weight issues will not be solved with 'her operation'….she needs to deal with her past issues, abuse being the big one

i have always found it to be disappointing, lazy and the easy way out for her…(please don’t flame me, I am entirely aware that the surgery is not easy, nor is the rest of your life afterwards....but if you haven't even attempted diet and exercise...)

carol never moved or tried to control her eating….’her operation’ was the only way

carol’s diet now consists of: coffee, mashed potatoes & gravy, jell-o, pudding, and oddly enough…prime rib

i had a trainer for a minute, (economics being what they are now) who I had discussed carol’s impending surgery with…everything the trainer said has come to fruition

my trainer had 2 clients, husband & wife that both had surgery, lost weight & then turned around and gained quite a bit back by not following a proper diet & eating lots of soft food

i’m trying very hard to support carol, but her complete disregard for following the doctor’s and nutritionist's orders/recommendations is pissing me off…..

and yes, wrong as it may be….i’d rather be fat than have a contraption in me that I’ll have to worry about for the rest of my life

I guess; no, i know i have now allowed this whole situation into my psyche….

there is no magic pill, drink, surgery or diet….truly, no easy way out

exercise, and diet are the only way for me to get my weight, health & psyche right

enough of my tale of woe…..i know what I need to do….it was just nice to be able to vent

every day is a new start to the rest of my life…..gotta make it a great one!