Sunday, April 28, 2013


DO NOT start your morning/day with the last 10 minutes of the movie Stepmom….’98, Julia Roberts is the ‘stepmom’ and Susan Sarandon is the mom, who is dying of cancer…the last 10 minutes take place on christmas morning….the Last Christmas Morning

I haven’t cried that hard in a long, long time….it wasn’t just crying, bawling…horrible

I miss my Mom, every day….i do, I know that I don’t have a conscious thought of her every day like I did in the beginning…but I know that miss knowing she’s there…….because she’s not there

Thursday, April 11, 2013


Every payday I find myself holding my breath while I login to my bill pay service…..hopeing that there will be enough to cover my bills & leave enough to buy gas for my vehicle and food to feed my face

it’s a bit pathetic, I know, but I don’t have the luxury of a spouse to fall back on, “just in case” there isn’t enough…

I’m pretty proud of myself in that I have taken my lunch to work every nite since the beginning of January…..this may not seem like a big deal, but here’s a bigger one…..i bought myself a ‘dinner out’ last weekend for the first time, also since January

I have saved stress, heart palpitations, headache……..WOW!

now, I certainly haven’t saved any money…..but I am now able to do things with my nephew….again, not a big deal to most, but huge for me

especially because his father has no interest in doing things with his kid…..appalling!

and his mom, well, I’m not quite sure what’s up with that

anyway, no one will see this, cuz true though it is……..drama would follow, so no facebooking of this

this weekend, The Boy and i will head out to The Gorge!

i will post those pics on FB